Jesica Leland, 1969

As an actress, this is just about the best head shot they could get of me. I was always spaced out, could not face the world without downers and uppers, thought Valley of the Dolls was about role models.
I'd work with one photographer after another. There was always a look of fear and sadness in my eyes. I might not be thinking it or feeling it but the sadness just broadcast from my eyes.
Nothing was ever right in those days. After slipping into porn movie making and modeling just to pay the bills, I got scared that everyone I saw on the street recognized me from the work I'd been doing. So I packed up and ran away from Hollywood to live on a commune with Timothy Leary, in the canyons where Orange County runs into Riverside. It was canyons back then, all open country, with little settlements of hippies in the Woods.

Kay pudging up post rapes

I began to cover myself with fat right after the rapes stopped, around this age at First Communion -- to keep people away. Until I reached puberty.

Happy Kay young enough to be pre-rapes

Father Horne hadn't gotten to me yet. I'm smiling.

Bartlett c. 1953 downtown

You can see Humbracht's and the water tower, plus the train station on the right. That was it for downtown Bartlett. The park was up the street and Route 20 about a half mile away, a sprinkling of homes between downtown and

Bartlett Illinois 1955 pictures of innocence lost

THREE SISTERS in Bartlett Illinois.
These photos illustrate the story that can be read at City of Angels 1 and 2. In photo at left is me Kay, at the bottom, just about 1 year old. Patricia is in the middle, first to be handled by Father Thomas Barry Horne (Pictured below), in fact Horne was just getting to Patricia, the middle sister, around the time this photo was taken. At top is Peggy (Margaret) who was too old for the pedophile priest's tastes. She ran away soon after this picture was taken, angry in part at all the attention Patricia was getting. In later years Peggy grew to be homicidal.

Pictured below is Father Thomas Barry Horne, who I know raped my sister Patricia and me from about 1949 to 1954, starting with her at age 5, when she got too old for his tasted he dropped her for me, when I turned around 5. Also pictured below St. Peter Damian Church c. 1955, founded by Horne in 1949.

To read the story this illustrates click the link in the top left column.

-- Kay Ebeling